Sunday, February 25, 2007

ALOT of New.

We move into our new home March 1st. Ours. Not rented, ours. Our new puppy should be coming home about the same time. With all this going on I am happy to go over my due date with this baby. I feel fantastic, best pregnancy ever. I've only gained 14lbs so far and I eat pretty much what I want, including indulging my strongest craving once or twice a week; McDonald's chocolate shake and large fries. Must be all that yummy saturated fat. Aside from wishing I could be more interactive with my boys, my big ol' belly gets in the way of floor play and picking them up is a no-no, I wish this last pregnancy could stretch a little longer. All the house stuff has taken away from the time I would like to be spending basking in my pregnancy glow. With house shopping, paperwork, packing, cleaning, signing, meeting up AND normal day to day I just don't seem to have the time to sit back and reflect. It saddens me that this is my last. The last time for a tiny life to grow in my womb. The last time I feel a tiny kick in the ribs, roll over the bladder, or bump in the night. I have my memories of my childbearing time, but we all know memories are so fleeting. If money and time weren't an issue I'd be happy to have a 4th. I love Jer and I as parents, but we are stretched thin already. A small part of me thinks maybe down the road we could have just one more and is hesitant to make anything final. But I also know that I want to go back to school and invest a little time in me. For me and for my family. I have two, almost 3, children who depend on me. That's plenty. I want to give them things we didn't have, I want to show them so much and they cost plenty. So we will forever be in love and satisfied with the 3 we have in our lives and never wonder about any we didn't decide to have in the future. There is enough new going on right at this moment, let's hope or next new shows up a little late.